I’ve just returned from a week long “vacation”; is it a vacation if you don’t have formal employment?
The feeling when I returned was different.
In the past, the approach to the Monday morning after a vacation would be a mixed bag of emotions; dread at having to get up early, excitement to see the team overlaid with fear and worry of what might have happened in my absence, anticipation of new projects and opportunities.
This Monday there was none of that. The day approached, began and progressed just like every day over the last several months. No worry, no surprises…only my own schedule to follow and self-imposed deadlines.
Do we need external responsibilities to truly understand the impacts and benefits of not having any responsibilities for a period of time? To ensure we appreciate the times when all we are obligated to do is relax and enjoy the moment?
Maybe….maybe not. Everyone’s different. We have to find out what works for each of us.
I do plan on having those external responsibilities again one day, and in the meantime I’ll keep making lists of things I want to accomplish now, create my own deadlines and celebrate successes. I’ll take vacations and enjoy them.
Lastly, in the interests of being honest… being my own “boss” does mean that sometimes the list of projects/tasks is really long and sometimes the only things on it are ‘walk the dog and read a book’…
…and that’s okay for now.