Ego

When was the last time you agreed to be responsible for something, because you were flattered to be asked? And five minutes later thought to yourself ‘holy doodle, I don’t even know where to start, what was I thinking!?’ You’ve made a promise, you have to see this though. Why did we say yes? For some […]

Weightless

A momentary glimmer of light flicker, dark, flicker. Growing steadily stronger, quicker bright, dim, bright. What path is this, that shows such promise then denies? Teases and coaxes, enticing me, with small lies. I’ve done my share done my part Felt the burn, the pounding of my heart. Does the judge not care, not hear […]

Glass House

Firstly, a disclaimer, I’m not an expert on running, however….today at the gym I saw something that seemed wrong. One of the ladies had the speed on the treadmill set really fast and she would periodically grab the front of the treadmill or the handrails to kinda keep up with her feet. Even with my […]

This week…

This week I received an email from the university letting me know which courses are open for registration. I’ve got two starting in a couple of weeks but I browsed the list anyway, one of the courses caught my eye so I clicked it, and for some reason I felt excitement, an awakening of positive […]

I’m choosing happy!

I’m not always forlorn, it creeps up on me when I’m idle, when my brain is operating on autopilot, you know… showering, emptying the dishwasher, even sometimes walking the dogs. That’s the one that brings me to my senses, how on earth can I be gloomy when I’m in the fresh air with beautiful blue […]

Physical States

I see you I saw you, throw your lit cigarette out the car window. I heard you I hear you, cruelly berate your child in the supermarket. I sense you I feel you, judge the clothes, the smile, the weight of another. I allow myself to react, to physically, emotionally react And in doing so […]

Whose reflection is it?

I recently read a LinkedIn comment that got me thinking about expectations. How we all have them and quite often hold others accountable for not doing something that is based on our personal expectation for appropriate behaviour. When I “lost” my job recently lots of lovely people reached out and expressed their outrage, dismay and sadness, […]

absurd

a feather boa, on Tuesday morning rings on every finger, during breakfast two fires going, one upstairs, one downstairs; I’m in the bath. bottled water, for face washing…while camping 4 types of cheese, just because. a little bit more of this, a lot more of that one skull scarf? please….6 is the minimum does my […]

The Best Part

This last few days have been a whirlwind of activity, first preparing for family arriving (groceries, booze, decorating, making beds, presents for kids) and then entertaining. Fabulous time had by all…or so they said, I choose to believe them. But what’s the best part when friends and family come to stay? The first night of […]

Left foot…right foot, triple V step

This morning I went to the gym, to a step class. It starts simple: step up, down…step wide (that’s the V step), step on the corner, lift your knee, step on the other corner, lift your knee three times, then V, then Ham, then V, then triple knee, triple V, double Ham…corner to corner across […]